Well, life has thrown me for a loop...last time i blogged i was headed off to Sunny San Diego...It was the world's fastest trip...i left Thursday at 1:00 pm and was home back in Utah Friday at 1:00 pm...24 hours...
Life...Sometimes, well honestly most of the time we can't control it...i am a control freak btw...So letting go and giving up control is not an easy thing for me...But...this time i am having to let go of the control and just hang on...The Lord is in control of this one...
So let me back up a bit...
I left Thursday with all my kits packed in my suitcases...tied with hot pink tulle...{cute right?} i got to San Diego as planned...i was hesitant in going for some reason...i LOVE San Diego, i was excited to teach with my new paper...i was excited to spend time with April...See friends...Make new friends...but as Meg drove me to the airport i was a little sick to my stomach...worried about Brooke who had had the flu all week...but i went...i had committed...
When i arrived in San Diego the sun was shining...i sat at the curb with my luggage, waiting for April to pick me up face to the sun...LOVE that...LOVED the idea of getting some sunshine...
April picked me up and we drove to her home...i loved it...It was so "April" loved seeing the kids...Talked to Thomas about rare squishies...He read a book to me...we ordered pizza and just talked...no big plans...just hangout...loved it...
i spoke with Meg who was going to take Brooke to the Doctor because she just wasn't getting any better, we thought she might need an antibiotic or something...right...
Well, as soon as Meg got her to the Doctor's office and they took Brooke's blood pressure they called 911 and an ambulance to her directly to the hospital...Her body was shutting down...Her blood pressure was so low and her white blood count was way too high...Scary...Meg called me...i was sick...
sick that i hadn't stayed home with my girl...listened to the promptings that i had felt...
lesson learned...listen to your heart...listen...
i got on the first plane Friday morning...i have been at my girl's bedside...i have prayed...i have watched my girl struggle to breathe...i have stroked her hand...rubbed her feet...listen to her sleep...covered her in a cheetah snuglie...and prayed...
She was in the ICU Friday, Saturday and part of Sunday...Attached to machines to feed her, breathe for her...make her well...
Today she is breathing on her own...not even oxygen...she sleeps...i sit and i watch my girl...i pray...i am grateful...she is getting well...the swelling is going down, her kidneys are working again, her lungs are on the mend...she has pink in her cheeks...
So i let go of the control...i just hang on...
i have said it before and i am sure i will say it again...life is a roller coaster...up...down...sometimes we ride with our hands in the air...and sometimes we just hang on for dear life with fear...
this weekend has been a white knuckle kind of hang on...
my girl...she has pink in her cheeks again...
thank you for all your prayers...i believe in prayer...i know it works...i believe in miracles...this weekend has been filled with both...
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Oh my! How VERY scary. Glad to hear she's on the mend. Was it the flu or something else? Yikes.
Posted by: nerdgrl | March 22, 2010 at 04:41 PM
I'm happy that she is getting better. Being a mother, I can't imagine something like that happening to my child. You, your daughter, and your family are in my prayers.
Posted by: Anita A | March 22, 2010 at 05:19 PM
Marge: Nothing but positive thoughts and prayers headed in your direction!!! Glad that everything is on the mend.
Posted by: anneinca | March 22, 2010 at 05:20 PM
God is so good....
Posted by: Carrie P | March 22, 2010 at 05:31 PM
OMG-how absolutely scary that had to be for you. Happy that she is doing better-prayers for continued improvements.
Posted by: Chris P | March 22, 2010 at 05:43 PM
Dear Margie,
So glad to hear that your precious Brooke is doing better. What a scary thing for a mom to go through. I love the photo of her with the cheetah snuggie..you are a wonderful mom. I will send some prayers for strength, recovery and good health for Brooke your way. Blessings to your family that she is getting better. xoxox tena
Posted by: tena | March 22, 2010 at 07:00 PM
I am glad to hear she is doing better but still sending prayers your way!
Posted by: Kathy Kurth | March 22, 2010 at 07:05 PM
oh, my goodness! what an ordeal. so glad she's better.
Posted by: charity hassel | March 22, 2010 at 08:18 PM
How scary for you!! As a mother that travles for work alot, I totally understand how you must have felt. One of my worst trips started with my son being sick and me traveling with "the big boss" on an important trip. My heart ached as I got on the plane and I couldnt focus until I managed to fly home early, knowing I'd see my baby soon. I spent the next two days holding and caring for him and being thankful he was okay. Best wishes to you and your daughter, I wish her a speedy recovery.
Posted by: Cindy | March 22, 2010 at 08:21 PM
Sending prayers your way. SO HAPPY she's on the mend!!!
Posted by: Mary Whiteside | March 22, 2010 at 08:49 PM
Truly frightening and as mom's we second guess every decision. Don't beat yourself up, last year my daughter went from perfectly fine, to admitted for pneumonia within 36 hours ( although not as serious as Brooke ). It is a white knuckle trip.... I am adding all my thoughts to you and your family and hope that Brooke will continue to speed through her recovery now!
Posted by: Carol | March 22, 2010 at 08:56 PM
Oh Margie--I can only imagine how frightening this experience has been for you, Brooke, and your family. I'm so glad to hear that she's on the mend, but I know how much something like this can shake your foundation. You are such a strong woman--and I know that that strength is pouring into Brooke to make her whole again. Love to you, Sweets!--Cath
Posted by: Cath | March 22, 2010 at 09:02 PM
Great to hear she is feeling better!! I learned on the way to my wedding....to write the plans in pencil and give God the eraser! You are such a lovely mom...happy to hear she is better and see pink in her cheeks! :o)
Continuing to send you positive energy!
Posted by: krishnam | March 22, 2010 at 09:10 PM
Here's the thing: at the moment when you are at the very tippy top of the roller coaster, right before the big plunge, I want it to be you sitting next to me. We can scream together.
Love ya.
A
Posted by: April | March 22, 2010 at 09:23 PM
Keeping you and Brooke in my prayers. It is so good to see the smile on her face, is such a snazzy snuggie too. Praying for her to mend quickly and regain her strength! Hugs
Posted by: Rachel | March 22, 2010 at 10:09 PM
prayer works alright...and as for your gut instinct - i always trust mine cos i know how in tune i am with it!!!! follow that feeling!!!!
glad she is on the mend now!!!
Posted by: mandyb | March 22, 2010 at 11:21 PM
glad to hear brooke is on the mend!
xoxo
Posted by: patty | March 23, 2010 at 07:39 AM
oh how scary for you, poor sweet girl. hope she's feeling a thousand times better.
xo
Posted by: kl | March 23, 2010 at 09:06 AM
Margie...how scary!! So happy she is on the mend. We almost lost our daughter at 6 months of age then again at 5 years old. She is nearly 13 now and I will never forget the fear I had. It still brings me to tears.
Prayer DOES work!!:)
PS. My Emma has that same snuggie:)
Posted by: Leslie | March 23, 2010 at 09:25 AM
Lifting you and your family up in prayer! God is the great healer and will be with Brooke. God Bless you!
Posted by: Terri C | March 23, 2010 at 09:37 AM
So glad to hear she is recovering and is pink...it's one of your fav colors, isn't it?
We will keep her and your family in our prayers. They are amazing things, prayers. :)
Posted by: Tina | March 23, 2010 at 09:37 AM
OH sweet girl - I"m so sorry! I hope that she is doing better! Thinking and praying for all of you! HUGS!
Posted by: Robyn W. | March 23, 2010 at 10:02 AM
sending lot's of brite, healing light and love!!! prays for you all<3
Posted by: annette abrahamson | March 23, 2010 at 10:05 AM
Thinking of you and your family!
Posted by: Jami | March 23, 2010 at 11:41 AM
I just came over to check out your site for the first time. I am Considering going to spark this year and read this post. My heart so understands what you are going through. My Mother nearly died last year from complications from CLL. I am so touched by your words and honesty. There is just nothing like a Mother/Daughter love and bond. Know I am sending lots of prayers you and your families way.
Posted by: cynthia | March 23, 2010 at 01:29 PM