Well, life has thrown me for a loop...last time i blogged i was headed off to Sunny San Diego...It was the world's fastest trip...i left Thursday at 1:00 pm and was home back in Utah Friday at 1:00 pm...24 hours...
Life...Sometimes, well honestly most of the time we can't control it...i am a control freak btw...So letting go and giving up control is not an easy thing for me...But...this time i am having to let go of the control and just hang on...The Lord is in control of this one...
So let me back up a bit...
I left Thursday with all my kits packed in my suitcases...tied with hot pink tulle...{cute right?} i got to San Diego as planned...i was hesitant in going for some reason...i LOVE San Diego, i was excited to teach with my new paper...i was excited to spend time with April...See friends...Make new friends...but as Meg drove me to the airport i was a little sick to my stomach...worried about Brooke who had had the flu all week...but i went...i had committed...
When i arrived in San Diego the sun was shining...i sat at the curb with my luggage, waiting for April to pick me up face to the sun...LOVE that...LOVED the idea of getting some sunshine...
April picked me up and we drove to her home...i loved it...It was so "April" loved seeing the kids...Talked to Thomas about rare squishies...He read a book to me...we ordered pizza and just talked...no big plans...just hangout...loved it...
i spoke with Meg who was going to take Brooke to the Doctor because she just wasn't getting any better, we thought she might need an antibiotic or something...right...
Well, as soon as Meg got her to the Doctor's office and they took Brooke's blood pressure they called 911 and an ambulance to her directly to the hospital...Her body was shutting down...Her blood pressure was so low and her white blood count was way too high...Scary...Meg called me...i was sick...
sick that i hadn't stayed home with my girl...listened to the promptings that i had felt...
lesson learned...listen to your heart...listen...
i got on the first plane Friday morning...i have been at my girl's bedside...i have prayed...i have watched my girl struggle to breathe...i have stroked her hand...rubbed her feet...listen to her sleep...covered her in a cheetah snuglie...and prayed...
She was in the ICU Friday, Saturday and part of Sunday...Attached to machines to feed her, breathe for her...make her well...
Today she is breathing on her own...not even oxygen...she sleeps...i sit and i watch my girl...i pray...i am grateful...she is getting well...the swelling is going down, her kidneys are working again, her lungs are on the mend...she has pink in her cheeks...
So i let go of the control...i just hang on...
i have said it before and i am sure i will say it again...life is a roller coaster...up...down...sometimes we ride with our hands in the air...and sometimes we just hang on for dear life with fear...
this weekend has been a white knuckle kind of hang on...
my girl...she has pink in her cheeks again...
thank you for all your prayers...i believe in prayer...i know it works...i believe in miracles...this weekend has been filled with both...
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So, so happy for good news! Be strong... lots of love and prayers for her and you!!
Posted by: Debby Schuh | March 23, 2010 at 01:47 PM
God is so good to hold us when we can't hold on to him. Glad to hear Brooke is improving.
Posted by: Phyllis | March 23, 2010 at 06:33 PM
OH my gosh, Margie! It's tough when are babies are sick. God bless you and your family.
Posted by: Sherry Grove | March 23, 2010 at 09:03 PM
catching up on your blog...tears in my eyes while reading... take care of your baby girl... and take care of yourself sweet girl
Posted by: Heather | April 02, 2010 at 07:56 AM