on Wednesday night i lost my sweet little Lola Bella in a devastating accident.
she followed me everywhere i went.
i live alone and have for over a year now.
i love being on my own.
i love my home.
but know that i am not an "alone" girl.
a few months ago Brooke asked me if i would be willing to take her roomate's wild little dog.
i fell in love instantly.
Lola was just like me.
blonde and wild.
just a puppy.
Lola love to cuddle on the back of my neck.
if i was working on my laptop she was curled up around my neck.
loved this sweet girl.
Wednesday night i was in shock.
the reality of it hit me hard.
yesterday was tough.
sometimes life is just that.
yesterday i went up and down emotionally.
at one point i felt like what more.
how much can one girl take.
i put on my workout stuff and i got my butt outside.
and i walked.
tears were shed.
i was sad.
i kept walking.
the sun was out.
i had the music cranked.
i was walking as fast and hard as i could.
my mind raced.
then this song came on.
i have never heard it.
but the words were exactly what i needed.
i have said it before.
i believe in a God who knows me.
he knows what adversity i can handle.
it is something that i hold onto.
trials will come.
and what i know.
we get through it.
we learn from them.
if we are open.
that is the hard part.
not closing down.
which is the hard part for me.
when i get down staying down.
getting out and walking was just what i needed.
a reminder that i am small.
this amazing world is so huge and there is so much for me to be grateful for.
i will miss my sweet lola bella girl.
i will be ok.
today is a new day.
i am ready to face it.
today my trues are coming for a sleepy.
just what i need.
time with friends.
looking forward to the weekend.
Spring is here.
it's a choice.
ps. thank you all for the amazing support on line yesterday. i was touched beyond words.