forging new trails.

i have started to exercise.

i have never been one to do it.

not a fan.

don't like getting sweaty.

don't feel like i am particularly athletic.

but.

i have started exercising.

i have access to a gym at the colorful townhouse.

a pool.

and what i love most.

a trail.

it winds all around the entire complex.

so i have started taking the trail.

everyday i walk a little farther.

longer.

faster.

i wind my way in and out of the streets and onto the trail.

i get up early with the sun.

not going to lie.

i am loving it.

love the feeling of the early morning sun on my face.

it's starting to get brisk in the morning.

love the cold air.

it makes me feel alive.

so i walk.

and walk.

one day i will run.

maybe.

this past weekend i spent alone.

another new trail for me.

all of the kids were gone to Idaho with their Dad.

my house was so quiet.

just me all weekend.

i did me things.

i walked.

went to the gym.

had a massage Saturday.

and crafted all weekend.

at first i was like,

"this is great"

but by Sunday night i was lonely.

missing my kids.

this new trail in my life is a good one.

like exercise i have never liked being alone.

but more and more i am.

learning to forge this new trail.

doing things for myself.

i know.

i am 45 i should already know how.

but for 25 years i have been a wife.

a mother.

had a house filled with children.

family.

in a week i will be 46.

46 is going to be amazing.

damit.

i am doing things for myself that i have always wanted to.

i am still a mother.

and love every minute.

{well most of it}

WINK.

i am doing things i love.

like my new job.

like Spark.

spending time with girlfriends.

creating a home.

stretching in new ways.

everyday going a little further.

it's not always easy.

sometimes it hurts.

but in the end it's good.

while i walk i listen to music.

but mostly i listen to the thoughts in my head.

on my walk there are tons of these thistles.

i absolutely love them.

some would say they are weeds.

but i love the way they look.

if you look closely at them they are really prickly.

you wouldn't want one in your pocket for sure.

but i love the beauty in them.

like this new life of mine.

it's not always easy.

or smooth.

but there is beauty in it.

every day i am out there walking the trail.

finding beauty.

stretching.

growing.

changing.

it feels good.

breathing.

exhaling.

happy Tuesday.

get out there.

there are trails to be forged.

kiss kiss

m.

 

Comments

[sharron]

sounds like a great path that you are on!!
enjoy every step.
shabby mama

[Rhonna]

Mmm*wah!

[Emma Tandy]

Good for you, Life all about in bracing it, My kids are small but for the first time in 8 years they are at school and nursery and I have a few days to myself and I'm loving it the quite and the me time now I just need to fit the walk or run. xxxx

[Stephanie H.]

Happy Birthday!

I just had one last weekend and I am just thrilled to have another one to celebrate! :)

I applaud your bravery - starting something new is always a bit scary, but oh so rewarding when we master it. Keep on truckin' girl!

[Rebecca]

That is awesome, darling! You are doing great! I've never been much of an exercise person myself, but sure feel good when I do! (Except for the sore muscles and all...) I'm so proud of you!

[Nancy Wyatt]

Wonderful! Wish I had a pretty trail to walk nearby! It might help get my lazy ar$e off the couch! ha!! Have a wonderful week and I will give you a birthday hug next month when I'm in town for Spark. eeek, I'm so ready to come to see all my gal pals at Spark in UT!! Hugs from Conroe, TX!

[Meg Keller]

You inspire me...exercise...rocking the aloneness...enjoying your new life...creating...it's all good. Thanks for that!
I cut out a vinyl peace sign for my daughter who is divorced, stuck it on her mirror, and told her to be at PEACE with her new single Mom life. She says she likes the reminder every day!
Kudos to single Moms everywhere!!!

[angieinpink]

very inspiring. very, very. choosing to see the beauty is a gift & sharing it is a blessing to others. ♥ you! xoxo

[Marjie Kemper]

Wonderful post, Margie. So inspiring! Happy Trails.

[Barbara Frazier]

Keep moving forward ... you'll never know what's up around the next corner. You ARE an inspiration.

[Kristy Hansen]

I too am a single mom and have been for 11 yrs. I spent the weekend alone also-and like you it started out great--then like you-the loneliness seeped in. Like you i just started to Jazzercise-it feels good once it is done and over...like you-i recently retired after 34 years of teaching and today I have an interview for a new kind of job-working in a frame shop! It sounds exciting being around ART and on Friday another interview for a teacher's aide-my heart's desire. I am hoping I can do both. Like you-change is hard-and I do a baby step at a time. Have a great birthday!

[Laurie]

you're so inspirational Margie!! Hope 46 is good to you, you look fab! Like you, I don't like exercise either, love to walk though, and love the cooler morning air to walk in...enjoy your time alone and I think those pokey weeds are cool too!

[patty]

m...

keep moving forward!
xoxo...
~p

[Tracy Keith]

Ms. Margie, you inspire me in many different ways! Thanks for sharing and good luck on your new path of life. Hang on, it's going to be a beautiful ride!!

XooXXo
Tracy Keith

[carly]

I love this, Margie. You're so inspiring. I think that is so key in life - embracing what is. And seeing the beauty around you - even in ordinary things. Especially in ordinary things... But, it's so hard to do, sometimes. Thank you for this post. And for your blog. And for being you!!

[fancyscrapper]

I am 42. Right behind ya! I still have an almost-12-yodd. I also have one who is almost 20. There are two in between. That makes four girls all still at home. Do you think I'm counting my days with thanksgiving? Oh yeah! You betcha!

Also, I have just finished 3 weeks of power-walking. Totally new for me. I have a love/hate relationship with exercise.